Ok, so a long story cut short, I met my ex boyfriend over a year ago and I fell madly in love with him, he got depression issues over my past relationship simply because he was a virgin and he couldn’t handle the fact I was with somebody before him, he broke up with me a year later because the depression had got so bad, but apparently he still “loved me” and he cried when I told him I had to stay a way from him to come to terms with the breakup for a couple of months before we became friends again. He promised me I meant more to him then anything, and that he would try again with me in a couple of months blaablaablaaa. I know what you’re thinking, Jerk, whatever, but I still love him and I can’t help myself. So about two weeks after I became distant from him for awhile which was about four weeks after the breakup I saw him cuddled up with a girl in a club. Ofc I was extremely hurt at the time which ended up in me hitting him and going into a state of hysteria… Which also resulted in me kissing another guy in front of him….
It all got a bit hectic, I’m still with the guy i was with that night, I know it’s best for me to be on my own. But it seems when I’m on my own, I get so much more depressed. So really I’m selfish leading someone on for my own happiness =(. and now three months on since the incident I still find myself feeling empty because I know, I love my ex boyfriend still. And I don’t know what to do. I know he’s a complete jerk and I know I should move on. But the thing is I don’t want to, because he’s the love of my life and although I am with such a good, honourable, caring, loving guy, who treats me so much better, but my feelings for him will never be as strong as they were for my ex. But hey you can’t help who you love.
So back to the point, my ex, well, he’s still with the girl from the club, his reason for being with her that day was because he was lonely and needed affection. I’m not sure if that’s true but it’s what I chose to believe… We tried to be friends again but it seemed like he thought it was too awkward and I have stopped speaking to him for a few days and he seems to be pretty depressed… I’m not sure why though. Part of me wants it to be because he misses me.
And tbh I still want him back and I hate myself for it.

Do you think it’s possible he feels the same way :( ?

Related posts:

  1. What’s The Best Way To Get Out Of Breakup Depession?
  2. My girlfriend broke up with me. Whats the best thing I can do? I still love her.?
  3. What’s the best way to get over a 2 year relationship? My boyfriend just broke up with me 1 1/2 weeks ago.
  4. I broke up with my girl who I love, should I talk to her or no? (long but appreciate advice)?
  5. Can I Get Back With My Ex? Things Are Really Complicated!?

Tagged with: • • • • • • •

Filed under: Breaking Up is Hard to Do

Like this post? Subscribe to my RSS feed and get loads more!