Im 19 and never really had much experience with girls. Usually with girls it doesn’t really workout. I know it isn’t good, but i just like curtain things with girls, and i dont like to stray so i dont have a very high number of girls that i am attracted to, and the ones that i do like don’t usually like me, or are taken.
Well thats a little back ground on me. but i recently had a little relationship about a month ago. and it lasted like two weeks or so. idk it seemed too good. she was the type of girl i could picture myself marrying someday, and i felt pretty strongly too her. i think that maybe if it would have lasted longer i might have fell in love. anyways it didn’t work out because i was kind of her rebound. she broke up with her ex of 1 year, like a month or two before and i guess when i started talkin to her she was kinda vulnrable. i grew up with her and we liked eachother as kids then she moved away and i got incontact with her when she moved back. she told me that she really likes me and that she just isn’t ready for a relationship and needs time.
So my problem is that, its really hard to be friends with someone you like. im 19 and she is 17, so we obviously don’t go to the same school, and dont see each other at all unless we meet up. and so i don’t text her often, i usually start the texting but sometimes she does. and this is like once or twice a week. and sometimes we will go a week or two without texting. but when i do text her i feel like we run out of things to talk about because we avoid a lot of topics, i have asked her if i waited could we go out, and she responded that she would like to, but can’t make promises. but the problem with that is that idk how long it could take she was talkin about months and maybe a year.
I feel very LONELY and UNHAPPY and its not because of her, its because i didn’t really know what i was missing and so i wasn’t as lonely till i got with her. but i mean a year is a long time to feel like shit, and when i do stop talking to her for a while i wont think about her as much and its not as bad, but then she will text me and i will start thinkin about her again. and i feel lonely and unhappy, and i have nothing to do when i dont have college. i don’t really have any close friends most are distant or accuantenances.
I think that maybe what i need to do is get closure from her? and i have been thinking ALOT about it and it feels too open buti still want to talk to her and its hard not to. but i figure i could talk to her about it, and tell her that i want to stop talking and that maybe a few months or later if she wants to get together we can if i dont meet anyone else, or she don’t meet anyone else. but that will be really hard for me to cut off from her, and on the other hand i could just kinda tough it out, and try to join some clubs or something idk to pass the time i really want to be happy, and feel better. its not suicidal or anything, i just feel unhappy and its not her fault. but i just need to either get some closure, or try to keep up the talking and idk make it work.
So i just want some advice on what to do, i know its long so thanks so much for taking the time to read it.