Hey all.
This is probably going to be a long post to try explain it, and I know people don’t like reading long posts as they seem boring (Or that might be just me, but I still do to help people!) So I’ll try narrow it down, I hope you can bare with it to answer my question!
So, this was my first girlfriend, and now it has ended, I realise how immature and to put it bluntly, how pathetic the relationship was.
So yeah, I’ll get into the story – I went out with her for nearly 2 years, and it was a bad relationship, I realised this about 7 months into the relationship but I didn’t want to let her go because it was my first girlfriend and I didn’t think i’d get another one and thought i’d have nothing to do. We argued pretty much everyday (Not at the beginning of the relationship but after about 4 month) and we were really obsessive, making eachother promise we didn’t look at other girls/boys or fancy them, things like that. (Sad I know)
Not going to type a lifestory of it all, just giving you an idea of how bad the relationship was, but i’ll get to the question now.
This breakup was about 3 months ago, and after the break up I spent days not sleeping and thinking everything through, and thats when I realised how immature it all was, and I realised I didn’t love her and she didn’t love me, it was just hell, we did have good times and go on holiday together and things like that, but we had no trust or anything.
So..After realising I didn’t love her, she didn’t love me, and I didn’t want to be with her I left it at that and tried to move on with my life, I got rid of all memories of her and thought even more of her personality and who she was and wondered why the hell I went out with her, because I hate her personality now I realise all this.
But after realising all that and moving on, up until now (3 months later) I still randomly, when I’m not doing anything or trying to sleep, get thoughts of her and kind of feel upset, but I don’t understand why because I don’t like her as a person, and I realise it was a really bad and immature relationship..So my question is – Why am I still thinking about her and being upset? She seems to have moved on, but I don’t know because I made sure I have no contact with her, but why can’t I move on? (Even though I want to because I know the relationship was bad and I don’t even like her)
By the way if it helps, we are both 18, and also – I’ve learnt a lot since then, I was kind of stupid, I’m not obsessive as the ‘Making eachother promise’ bit hints anymore! just wanted to point that out lol
And Bloody hell when I previewed this I didn’t expect it to be this long lol sorry about that – I’ll be surprised if I get any answers when it’s this long!